My Journal

Brenda Savanhu Author of Memorial Stones Forgiveness “Who else do I need to forgive?” I asked the Lord on Saturday afternoon. A podcast I was listening to inspired the question. I leafed through a Rolodex in my mind of people I’d held in unforgiveness. As I flipped through each one, I heard, “nope, nope, nope”…finally we got to the end and no one popped up. Yet, I still felt like there was someone I needed to forgive. Am I perfect? Absolutely not, but getting to the end of the Rolodex present…

Brenda Savanhu Author of Memorial Stones Washed By The Word I woke up on Wednesday with an undercurrent of anxiety again. Yep, again! I had to rush off to an appointment early, but I got out just in time to log into the last half hour 4word’s Wednesday’s bible. And boy, did I need that session! My friend, who was leading, exhorted us with the following Psalm, Psalm 121 “The Lord Our Protector A song of ascents. 1 I lift my eyes toward the mountains.Where will my help come from?2 My help comes…

Brenda Savanhu Author of Memorial Stones When Rest Speaks Last week I shared about God’s presence and how I have been walking in a season of silence with Him. I’d ask Him questions and hear silence. So, I took the cue to sit with Him and not ask for anything. It has been hard to do that without distraction. To just “BE” with Him. I have to fight for that space especially in my mind. Well, friends something interesting happened in this place of “being”. On Wednesday morning, a dear friend sent…

Brenda Savanhu Author of Memorial Stones Practicing His Presence Have you ever gone through seasons where God is silent? Like you know He’s with you but He’s quiet. You’re asking all kinds of questions and going to Him with all kinds of petitions but nothing. That’s where I’ve been recently. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t feel like He abandoned me I just realized He wasn’t answering my questions or guiding me in the way I’ve been used to. I even looked back at a past season where I would hear…

Brenda Savanhu Author of Memorial Stones Sharing the Burden This week has been challenging for me. It was hard to put my finger on it. All I knew is the way I felt. On Tuesday morning, I woke up feeling rested but within minutes I felt like my energy was being siphoned off. It was the strangest thing. As the week went on, I felt better but not fully. Something was off. I later realized that I had all these “windows” open in the background of my brain (much like a computer) and these open…

Brenda Savanhu Author of Memorial Stones Fighting through Distraction Truthfully, writing for today’s post was a slog. I had to fight through one particular distraction all day. It wasn’t the kind where I could simply turn off my phone or put on headphones. No, this distraction literally manifested in my body. It took me a while to put a finger on it. Eventually, when I took a moment to be still Holy Spirit told me what it was. But the solution He told me to apply also took time. That…

Brenda Savanhu Author of Memorial Stones Praise Him I can’t shake it. For weeks, I’ve heard ” Praise Me” from the Lord. Prayer requests? “Praise Me.” Prayers answered? “Praise Me.” Navigating a challenge? “Praise Me.” In despair? “Praise Me.” Therefore, I won’t take time today to share. Instead, I invite you to spend the next few minutes praising the Lord. No matter where you are or what is happening in your life, join me in thanking and praising Him. Don’t know where to start? How about…

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Brenda Savanhu Author of Memorial Stones Can we talk..? Could you please indulge me today? Do you mind if we talk about my orchids again? (Missed the last orchid post? Click here.) A few days ago, it was time to water these beauties. As I nourished them, I gushed compliments of their beauty. I took a moment to look carefully at the details: the colors, the petals, the stems, the leaves, and the roots. I stepped back, took them in, and thought, “I have nothing to do with how beautiful they…